Shan and I teach 2nd and 3rd graders at church on Wednesday nights. It’s a really special time for us because it’s a way for us to serve the Lord together. Last night was my night to present the lesson. I was disappointed with my presentation because, although I had studied and although the children were engaged in the lesson, I felt like there was so much more I could have said to get the point across. I hadn’t gone deep enough. I had dropped the ball.
I am extremely passionate about teaching young people and I can’t conceal it. Why? Because I know that the lessons and scriptures I learned in 2nd and 3rd grade are the ones that swirl around in my mind 20 years later. They are the things that have helped me get through some tumultuous situations. I feel obligated to teach my students thoroughly. I feel a need to convey every important point I know. I don’t want to miss anything. I know that a spiritual battle is raging and I want to make sure the children are equipped with everything I’ve got and more to help them in this fight.
When I voiced my concerns to Shan, he assured me that things had gone well and that I would be able to go a little deeper in the word next week. He said that he could tell the children were paying attention by the responses they gave to our questions. They got it. He said that I should stop being so hard on myself. When I allow the Lord to speak through me, no point that “should” be covered is left uncovered. The Lord knows better than I do what the young people need to hear.
Then Shan said something that made me feel REALLY special. (I mean I’ve been cheesing all day.) He said that the thing he liked most about me when we dated was my passion for Christ. It is the thing that most attracted (and attracts) him to me. I never knew that. I never thought to ask him what he liked MOST about me. (I assumed it was my striking good looks, my amazing personality, and my delicious twice baked potatoes.)
I am elated to know that the thing my husband likes MOST about me—the thing that is MOST attractive about me—is my passion and my thirst for God. How awesome is that? I am so honored.