I
know that my heart condition is extremely important if I want to live a full
life in Christ—one that is meaningful and impactful. And as He continues to perfect me and make me
into His image, He brings things to my attention that need addressing in order
for me to be more like Him. He most
recently brought my attitudes about giving under the microscope.
I’ve
heard and read passages from Proverbs many times throughout my life, but
recently while listening to Proverbs on CD, something spoke directly to me and
I immediately felt convicted. I realized
that I had yet another issue of the heart, and I repented and immediately
started to behave differently. First let
me give you a little backstory.
I’m
not a “baller” yet, but I love to give.
I think it’s because my dad was a giver, and I admired him more than
anyone else in this world, aside from Jesus.
I wanted to be just like my dad and I constantly saw him give to those
in need. So I gave too. One of my fondest memories from childhood was
riding around with my dad during the holidays and giving out cards and money to
those in need. I loved the way it felt
to make someone smile. I remember being
in high school and begging my mom to donate to an organization on my behalf
because I felt so passionately about the cause, but didn’t have anything to
give. I regularly give clothes to
organizations that help the homeless and I give to all types of organizations
that do positive work in the community. I’m
always asking the Lord to bless me indeed like He did Jabez, because my heart
desires to have more than enough so that I can give, give, give. I love it.
What
I say next may seem to contradict my love of giving. In college, my attitudes about giving shifted. I became more picky about who I gave to. I gave a lot to organizations or people I
knew who were in need, but I rarely gave to random people I saw on the street
asking for money. I lacked compassion
for them. I felt harassed by them. I was convinced that if I gave, they wouldn’t
use the money wisely. Once, a guy asked
if I had any change to spare and I was literally offended that a grown man
would ask me for anything. I told him
that I was a struggling college student and asked him if he had any change he
could spare me. I started to think the
way so many others do. The poor were
poor by choice. They needed to get jobs. I avoided eye contact because I didn’t want
to be asked for help that I was unwilling to give. At freeway exits, I made sure I looked busy
whenever I was stopped next to someone holding a sign and asking for help. I stopped carrying cash around for the sole
purpose of being able to tell those who asked if I had any change that I
honestly didn’t. Every now and then my
heart strings would be pulled and I may have given someone $10 and a CALI Newsletter…or
I might have bought someone a meal in lieu of giving cash, but for the most
part I behaved like Scrooge before his transformation. I didn’t see anything wrong with my actions
because although I rarely gave to panhandlers, I still gave, gave, gave.
But
as I listened to Proverbs a few weeks ago, I realized the error of my ways. A few scriptures caught my attention:
“He that hath pity upon
the poor lendeth unto the LORD; and that which he hath given will he pay him
again.” (Proverbs 19:17)
“Whoever shuts their
ears to the cry of the poor will also cry out and not be answered.” (Proverbs
21:13 NIV)
“The generous will
themselves be blessed, for they share their food with the poor.” (Proverbs 22:9
NIV)
“He that giveth unto the
poor shall not lack: but he that hideth his eyes shall have many a curse.”
(Proverbs 28:27)
There
are many other scriptures in the bible regarding how we should treat those in
need—including a powerful passage in Matthew
25:35-40, which talks about how we honor God when we help those in need.
To
stop carrying cash so that I didn’t have to help someone in need was
wrong. To pretend that I am struggling
so much myself that I am unable to give to someone who obviously has a greater
need than I do is just wrong. To deny
someone in need because I’m worried about how they will spend the dollar I give
them is wrong. What they do with the
money is between them and God. I should
offer help when I can. To avoid eye
contact with a person and pretend like I don’t see their need is absolutely
wrong. These behaviors go against all
that the bible teaches.
I
thank God for His Holy Word and for His Spirit revealing truth to me. I feel so much joy in my heart now that my
giving is in line with His Word. It
feels so wonderful.
I
desperately want my life to be pleasing to my Father. I want Him to call me a woman after His own
heart. I want others to see Him when
they look at me. I am called to do many
things…and one of them is to help those who are in need—from a place of love. When I consider all that God does to bless me
each and every day, extending that same love to others is the least I can do to
say thank You.
No comments:
Post a Comment